Last night, I was heading to the jeepney terminal. I saw this guy and kind of stalked him. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, "soulmate ko 'to pag pareho kaming taga-Cavite." pero he isn't. HAHAHA. 

How can I move on when I'm still in love with you - , The Man who Can't Be Moved,The Script

Cuz love makes a sound baby
our heart needs a second chance
but dont put me down baby
cant you see I love you
since youve been gone
Ive been in a trance
this heart needs a second chance
dont say its over
I just cant say goodbye
- Second Chance, Malino/38 special

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
- Far Away, Nickelback

We just had our first real volleyball class. It was tiring. I so suck at volleyball. You're not surprised, I know. Anyway, i'm on my 3-hr break and all I want to do is freakin' sleep. But of course I cannot do that because there is no legal place to sleep here. Oh, and yeah, I am at school. All i can do now is use a computer and do whatever I like with it. Yes, i like to blog things out.

You see, I've been losing myself for quite some time now. I'm not trying to be deep here. That's just the best statement to describe it.

I've been doing nothing but go with the flow. And believe me, it's not nice to have no direction. AT ALL. It might sound corny but I think that this NO-LOVELIFE-status is the real cause of everything I am experiencing right now.

Everyday, I wake up. I try to pray. I take a bath. I go to school. I eat. I go home. I watch TV. I sleep. AND I wait for another day. Everyday is like that. Everyday is that boring. I don't even use my cellphone AT ALL sometimes. As in, I don't even have friends to say kamusta to everyday. Believe me, Life is boring today.

Don't get me wrong, I am not bored and wanting to die. I am not. What I am is a girl who is struggling to find her life's meaning. AND YOU SHOULD HELP ME.

No looking back. I am aiming for what's in front of me, and that is THE SUCCESSFUL FUTURE.

Akala ko I won't go back here na eh. Pero you know, gusto ko talagang magpost ng nararamdaman online. Pero ayokong mabasa niya. :))) HAHAHA

Kasi alam niyo I just can't stop thinking about him. It's freakin killing me. Naliligo ako, kumakain ako, matutulog ako, nagkaklase, bumabyahe. LAGI na lang. Someone has to get him off my mind. I SWEAR. Pero wala naman ako sa mood makipaglandian. Ayoko na kasi ng ganon lang. At isa pa, isa lang naman gusto ko. UGH.

Whatever.

Hay, sobrang long ago pa nung huli kong post dito.

Err, i recently got Pneumonia. and because of that, I cannot go to school yet. Next week pa daw. I am so worried sa studies ko. Mataas yung possbility na magfail ako kasi 2 weeks ung namimiss ko. My parents are considering the idea of letting me stop school. Pero ayaw ko sana, as much as possible. They want me kasi to take a rest. Pero I don't wanna be away from FMA7. Kaya bahala na si Lord.

Anyhoo, I am so thankful that I got out of Asian Hospital. I am VERY thankful to God. No word could describe it perfectly. Akala ko talaga I won't go out na. I am so thankful for Mommy and Daddy. Talagang I felt their care and love nung nasa ospital ako. I really wanted to get out of the hospital as soon as possible nung nandun ako. I was thinking of the bill. Kasi our health card covers P100,000. pero I used na P10,000 so P90,000 na lang. Eh nung 3rd day pa lang, the bill was up to P63,000 na. kaya I really wanted to get better eh. I don't want to cause any gastos. Tapos yung Doctor, he let me stay pa for how many days. So 6 days ako sa hospital. P120,000 daw yung bill. Pero buti na lang there's Philhealth and the health insurance company gave us another P5,000. So P15,000 na lang daw yung binayaran. Kung iisipin, hindi birong halaga yun. Pero kung iisipin mo din, binigyan ka na nga ni Lord ng P100,000 free, magrereklamo ka pa. Di ba? And at least I'm still at my parents' arms.

Yung pagkaka-ospital kong yun, ang daming pinarealize sa kin. :D Parang gusto kong magpakayaman at tumulong :))) Really.

I love you Lord.

I was just thinking of how unfair it is that my friends have boyfriends and I don't pero biglang narealize ko, this 2nd life is more than enough. :D

Err, I d have things to say. pero wait, I think yung multiply ko na lang gamitin ko pangblog. Kasi everyone barely knows this blog naman eh. Right? and almost everyone's a user of multiply na naman. So, siguro pag medyo private na lang sasabihin ko, tsaka ko ito gagamitin. Okay? Bye guys. Love you. <3

MULTIPLY

girl1: alam mo ba kagabi, ang sama niya sa kin. sabi ba nman pano daw kung yung Christmas gift niya sa akin, iwan niya ako. Sweet noh? (sarcastic)
girl2: oh? sino? si ano? anu ba yan. Sweet ah.
girl3: nililigawan ka nun?!
girl1: ha? hindi ah. ako nga nanliligaw eh. Joke lang.
girl3: eh ano lang?
girl2: umm, MU?! Ano nga ba?!
girl1: Ewaaaan. Basta!
girl2: Ah oo basta yun na yun.
girl3: Ah..

Ang ganda ng moon kagabi ano. :D parang smiley face. Ang cuuute. Hmm, tagal kong hindi nag-update. kwawa naman yung caroling namin, sure lose. :D HAHAHA.

Just when things are going okay, may nalaman ako bigla. Hayy, Life is becoming very unpredictable. Sobrang nakakalungkot. Hindi ko na-imagine sa buong buhay ko na mangyayari ito. :((

Sobrang gusto ko maging specific sa mga sinasabi ko. PERO BAWAL. Hindi pa naman ako sanay nang walang sinasabihan. Na hindi pwede sabihin. HUHUUHUHU talaga. Nakakainis talaga! :((

wala nnmang rason para gumisng kada araw.